Pretentious

My greatest gift is I'm so good at pretending...
I'm always smiling, laughing and joking around in public..
But what's really inside, only Allah, me and my pillow understands..
Keep everything bottled up inside but when the right time comes, everything came pouring out..

So please dear Allah, give me strength.. To keep things together.. And allow me to be pretentious for just a little while longer..