Thursday, November 29, 2012


I need to be consoled too, once in a while..
It is tiring to be the one who is comforting most of the time..
As I may break and shatter, and I may no longer shine..
For what I'm keeping inside is no longer fine..

Tuesday, November 20, 2012


My greatest gift is I'm so good at pretending...
I'm always smiling, laughing and joking around in public..
But what's really inside, only Allah, me and my pillow understands..
Keep everything bottled up inside but when the right time comes, everything came pouring out..

So please dear Allah, give me strength.. To keep things together.. And allow me to be pretentious for just a little while longer..

Saturday, November 3, 2012

1 month passed by so slowly...

December couldn't come much sooner..
And this heart can hardly wait much longer..
Come home quick my dear..
And make your lady much happier..
Guess what they say couldn't be any truer..
Distance does make the hearts grow fonder..

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Yeayyhhh!! Found it!!

Alhamdulillahx3!! Well, it wasn't really me who found it. Must be my parents.. I misplaced my watch (which was my wedding present from hubby) and I have been looking for it for almost 2 months now but all the while I've been keeping it to myself bcos I don't want mr hubs to know.. Hehe. (Hope he's not going to read this tho) ;)

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Long Distance Relationship (Phase II)

My husband had flew off to the UK on the 30th of Sept 2012 (more than 3 weeks ago), continuing his studies in Engineering. Even knowing the fact that he is coming back in 2 months time for a few weeks, still it was so hard to say goodbye..

I was in denial for quite some time before he flew off. The aftermath was worst.. The first week I cried myself to sleep almost every night. For the past 10+ months I was so used to having someone who was always there for me, sometimes would sent and picked me up from work, always the one who held out the door for me, someone who always made sure I had something to eat especially whilst busy working. The hardest part was to sleep and wake up with no one by your side. And the arguments of who would go and take a shower first in the morning especially during the weekends.. hehe. And then to come home from work and saw his car in the driveway, gave me false hope that he's waiting for me in the house.. *blood tears*

Now, both of us are trying to keep ourselves busy to keep our minds of being apart.
I sincerely would like to thank Apple from the bottom of my heart for creating the iPhone.. especially FaceTime! The greatest invention of all time.. We've been FaceTime-ing almost every night these past few weeks. It keeps us both staying strong and looking forward to see each other again soon.

Yes, by God's will I will be joining him soon.. In February hopefully. I am in the process of applying my unpaid leave and settling whatever need to be settled before leaving the country.

So I guess this blog will be updated more frequent next year! Haha.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

It seems so real now. I just realized I've been in denial these past few months. But now the ticket has been bought, it seems so real..

I've left him for 6 whole years before and now 3 months without him is only going to be a fraction of what he felt before. Now I don't know whether I can go through 3 months without him.. I am going to miss him.. so damn much.. ;((

I love u, Mr Hubby...

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Hello peeps!

9 months is such a long hiatus, isn't it? I do miss blogging. Busy Schmusy..
So just to summarise the past 9 months:

 1. I've completed 2 postings (A&E and Orthopaedic)
- I took one month unpaid leave for the wedding, hence the delay. hehe
- so I only have to do Paeds rotation last.. huhu :(
- A&E was the best rotation! Tiring yet beneficial.
- Ortho was blueerrgghh (is that even a word).. the only good thing about that rotation is that I made a clique consisting all the crazy ppl who loves to eat and sing! hehe. (I miss uolls!!)

2. I went to several mini holidays with Mr Hubby in and around Malaysia - up north around Perlis and Langkawi, as well as Melaka. We also had a family getaway to Krabi with the in-laws. ;)

3. And I started wearing veil in December. :). A change for the better, I hope..

4. Oh! And my cat, PB gave birth to 2 adorable kittens about a month ago (4 actually, but the other 2 didn't make it) and the other cat, CHat just gave birth to 3 kittens this morning!!! Yeayhh!!

Monday, August 13, 2012


The Honeymoon.. Destination: Bali, Indonesia Perfect getaway... The private villa with pool, the cultural shows, the food, the scenery..
Would definitely go there again someday.. ;)


The groom's side reception.. Getting to know the extended family and hubby's friends..
Then later that night we had an outdoor photoshoot session.. Tired? Yes! But it was all worth it! ;)


The fairy-tale wedding... :) Everything I dreamt of.. The white dress, the horse-ride, the garden-style wedding, the swing, no rain.... and MY DREAM GUY! Hehehe. Alhamdulillah..


The day I became Mrs Irwan Kamarull.. :))))
I know this is so delayed.. 9 months delaaayyy!!! Oh my goodness.. haha Sorry my lovelies.. ;)